clockwatching

twiddling my thumbs,
twirling my hair,
writing these words,
listening to hers,
anything to stop clockwatching.
because the minute hand
seems to be moving backward
and the blank faces break into yawns
that spread like wildfire around the room
like a game of tag,
eye contact means you're it
but that eye contact is rare-
no one looks at each other
just at the clock
or out the window
or at the tiles on the floor or ceiling
so no interaction
just clockwatching
seems like we're running out of time lately

ring around the rosie

it's not a secret that i've loved you
it never was.
those songs told you so
and your songs answered me, i thought
so how was it that you came almost close enough
and never closer?
like you said the words in your head
you thought about saying them out loud
you told me we've been dancing around the moment
they say the heart afraid of breaking
never learns to dance
but that wasn't the case with us
we kept dancing in circles,
afraid of breaking.
and we watched them take the leap
and we watched it pay off
and we talked about it
but we still danced a ring around their happiness
not even holding hands

.

the scariest thing about my life is inevitability.

where are you going?

i'm swimming in a sea of brake lights
but i feel like i can't slow down
or that i don't want to
i'm growing impatient
stuck in traffic, a vast abyss of cars
where are they going?
where am i going?
like an ocean that you can't see
but you can smell, and the sound...
waves crash down
i am no superman
if i were, i'd fly away, jump the line
have all the answers to questions
under the stars
yet here i am, growing weary.
can i rest with you a while?
take a deep breath,
take a seat,
tap the breaks, like everyone else

saturday morning

nothing's ever gonna happen round here
if we don't make it happen
so let's find an adventure in this lfie we've been given
let's drive with the windows down
for 100 miles with no destination
just each other's company
let's turn the music up and sing our favorite song
let's move on from those that are gone,
though we miss them,
and get to know the people here now
cause if we don't have any fun
we've got a long day ahead of us.

my hiding place

if your radio didn't work
and your friends all ran away,
would you let yourself fall in love with me?
if you took out your headphones
and gave me a chance to speak words you'd want to hear
if i said the right thing...
i tried to communicate with you
through music because i knew you would listen
and i said "you gave me the best mixtape i have.
i just wish there was so much more than that
between me and you"
and you said you liked that song the best
but if we turned the music off and opened our eyes
if we were open to each other
like we were told to be,
would you let yourself fall in love with me?
would you let me touch your face,
let your skin be my hiding place?
i promise i won't take up too much room.
i'll just rest my head on your chest when we watch a movie
and you won't want to go get popcorn
you'll just want to sit with me and be.

unraveled.

it's all or nothing
the second you stop caring
even just a little bit
it all starts to fall apart

and i think we're falling apart
so i used my lifeline
i phoned a friend and asked
for a little advice and a hug
from the person i knew could
comfort me.
the most reliable friend
because my most precious posession
like my most favorite sweater
is beginning to unravel
just a small pull
was all it took
and now nobody feels like dancing
when i never want to stop
when you're worrying about the future
you stop living for today
you're letting down the person
that gave you everything
and taught you all she knows
the people who've danced before us
stood where we stand
they look back now
and expect what they worked so hard for
to be taken care of
to whom much is given
much is expected